A Numbers Game

I bit the bullet and weighed myself this morning.  It was not pretty.  I GAINED weight.  Of course, this began the parade of insults and self-loathing comments to myself.  Most of all, I just did not understand.  I lost so many inches this week during beta; how could I gain pounds.  My better half says it is probably muscle as beta does some more strength things.  I also think it has to do with my (TMI moment) cycle being here.  I do have bad cycles, and all of the side effects that go along with it.

After I said all of these horrible things about myself, I went for my run.  During my run, I was thinking how motivated I am by numbers.  When I lost all of those inches, I was stoked to do it all again next week so I could see more results.  When I was devastated by the numbers on the scale, I was motivated to do more in order to hit the number I want to achieve.  Either way, I am motivated to see the number drop.

So what stops it?  Temptation?  Yummy food that has less than stellar health benefits?  I think, for me, it comes down to convenience.  I don’t feel like cooking or planning to cook, so I go out.  When I go out, I tend to order things that are not good for me.  Let’s be honest, even the things that are better for you are not that great for you.  I am trying to organize my life so that my better half and I go out once per week.  This way, we can have a date night, I can have one meal where I up my caloric intake, but I’m not sabotaging myself either.

Losing weight is WORK (so is putting it on, but that’s a conversation for another day).  For me, sometimes it comes down to the fact that I don’t want to put in the effort because I’m tired, don’t feel like it, think I deserve a “day off” (that turns into 3 or 4 meals).  This is also when I “forget” about the numbers.  I justify my poor habits by saying that I have done well and one poor choice will not do any harm.

It is when I really look at the numbers, that is when I get extra motivated.  You can tell when I am “slacking off” more because I stop blogging, stop cooking, stop working out etc.  Starting today, I’m always going to remember the numbers.  I know where I am now, I have a long term goal (125) and a short term goal (230 by the end of beta).  I am going to continue to plan and cook my own meals, except for date night, and I am going to log all of my food so I can track exactly how many calories I am taking in and how many I am burning.

I am determined to win the game.


STATurday (on Sunday)

I dont’ know why I can never manage to actually take my stats on Saturday, but here they are anyway….

I have to say, I am SO PLEASED with the results i am getting from beta.  I literally had to take out a calculator and make sure I was doing my math correctly.  Also, my workout buddy had similar results, so I am convinced it is from beta and not a measuring error on my part!!

Week 5  (end of Alpha)                                                       

Weight: 245 pounds

Bust: 45 inches

Waist:  44 inches

Arm: 14.5 inches

Thigh: 29 inches

Week 6 (Week 1 Beta)

Weight: I don’t know, I forgot to take it this am 😦

Bust: 44.5 inches

Waist: 42.5 inches

Arms: 13 inches

Thigh: 27.5 inches

Total Loss (for the week)

Weight: who knows….

Bust: -.5 inches

Waist: -1.5 inches (for real….really?!  This is awesome!!)

Arms: -1.5 inches

Thigh: -1.5 inches

Add this up…this makes a total loss of 5 inches in ONE WEEK!!!  This is ONE WEEK of beta….HOLY MOLEY!!!

Can I just say, that I am LOVING Focus T25.  What is your exciting news for the day?


Sunday goals

This week has been a great workout week!!

First, it was our first week of Beta, and we NAILED IT!!  I’m going to go through all of the beta DVDs in my Wednesday post, but the workouts are fantastic.  My workout buddy and I say that we are going from beta babies to beta babes.  We brought 100% to all of the workouts this week, and we found them challenging but not impossible.

Second, I have started a couch to 10K program.  You run 3 days per week.  This week I jogged for 60 seconds then walked for 90 seconds for a total of 30 minutes.  This week, I managed to do it all three days!!  Even in the heat.  I got up and jogged/walked my ass for three days.  Running is something I have always wanted to do but have never started….until now.

My goals for this week are going to be to continue to do well.  This means…

  1. Logging all my foods (I’ve been doing this for the most part) and checking it on my bodymedia to ensure I am maintaing my calorie deficit of 1000 calories.
  2. Run 3 days this week (Monday, Wednesday, and Saturday morning).  This will help me continue to follow my couch to 10k program.
  3. Complete all T 25 workouts.  I have done great so far, so I am not going to mess it up now!!!

What are your goals for the week?